Well, I ended up singing like crazy today, belting out “If I Could”, several times, before calling it quits and letting my voice rest.  The baby was so tired that she fell asleep in my arms while while I was singing…that’s crazy…she must have been really tired.  Her sleep time finaly gave me a chance to wash my face and comb my hair.  Wow, the things mommies do…I was looking ragedy for real.  But finally got it together. 

I also had the opportunity to speak with my best friend.  I am so proud of her.  She is on a mission to lose weight and she is doing it.  We were talking about her weight loss cerimony.  She wants to have a “memorial service” for her fat clothes.  Something only “girlfriend’s can relate to”…I love the idea.  Of course I’ll be singing. 

Well, i’m back to blogging like crazy and I really am going to get some videos done.  I saw a girl on YouTube who just video taped herself a capella who totally inspired me.   So, I’ve charged my Flip camera and am I definitely going to tape myself tomorrow, Monday, Novemebr 2nd.  You read it, so I am accountable to you regarding this committment.  Nichole Ayanna, signing out!

Ok.  So my hubby and I stayed home with the baby, which is what she really wanted.  I think she thought I was getting her dressed to drop her off with her grandparents.  She just wanted to be with her mommy and daddy.  So, tonight was still wonderful.

I had a great lunch today with a good friend of mine who also has a baby.  It’s so good talking to her because sometimes i feel we are living parallel lives in some respect.  We can relate and then she has other perspectives than me.  She is more conservative and I think I take a little more risks.  I think I am a little more creative, but she is highly cerebral and the voice of reason.  Conversations with her help you balance things out and she knows where all the great restaurants are downtown.

Well, I had a wonderful walk today with my accountability partner sista, my “aps”.  It was mostly me texting her while I took the 2 and half mile walk around the reserviore in Silver Lake, while she drove  to meet me from her editing bay in Venice beach (she is an amazing documentory movie editor).  We were suppose to walk together, but when I finished the walk she had just arrived and I needed to get back to pick up Lalah from my Moms.  So, we sat in the grass and had our empowerment session.  We keep eachother in check, making sure we stay on track in living our authentic lives.  We make sure that we inform eachother when we recognize that we are allowing fear to hinder our dreams, so that we can conquer that obstacle that we have created in our minds and get over it.  We acknowledge eacthothers accomplishments.

Its really strange how we met.  We were standing in line at thevalet, waiting for our cars after we both had already attended a day long internetmarketing seminar with another incrediby empowering woman name Vanessa Summers.  I introduced myself and asked how she liked the seminar and what type of business she was involved in, etc.  She was just open and friendly.  We talked about my mastermind group and accountability partners and what a great idea that would be.  We exchanged information, and then about 3 weeks later got started as eachothers APS’s.  It has been awesome ever since.  We are flexible with eachother if certain things are not accomplished or are altered a bit after we get more clarity in our lives direction.  It’s great!

Tonight, the baby went to sleep already…She tried to play my guitar tonight while I sang.  She can strum pretty well with her tiny fingers.  She loves music and looks up everytime she hears a guitar or a piano played on the TV. Play a song and her little head just bobbs up and down, she claps…I just love it.  Just wanted to share some of my100 million things today.

You may have read over the past few days that I have been exhausted trying to do all the things that I want to do in my life, be a good mommy and wife, work well, and sing like the performer I was born to be.  I had hit a wall because my baby had not been sleeping through the night.  I reached out to family and friends who gave me advice as to what to do.  Well, I’ve gotta say that last night I used a combination of techniques to get Ms. Thang to sleep.  Whatever I did worked, and my hubby and I finally got a good nights sleep, which had been lacking almost ever since she was born.  Man, I feel like a new person.  Sleep deprivation can really reek havoc on your overall wellbeing and your social life.  I’m going to work the same technique this evening too.  Wish me luck.

I actually had time to do my hair this morning as well a put on a little make-up…little pleasures you take for granted before having kids.

Do you have “your peeps” that have your back?

My focus of, course is on singing, health, and family and spiritual health.  I want to take you on the journey with me for the 90 days.  You can do it with me too.  My goal is to, each week, put up at least one video performance of some great songs I always wanted to learn and perform or those that I had written myself.  Singing makes me happy, it uplifts my spirits.  I just feel an overall sense of fulfillment when I sing and that happiness translates into every aspect of my life.  Some say that music resonates in your being and can actually change the cell make up in your body from rigid and sharp to rounded and harmonious ( I think it was in the movie “What the Bleep”).

I also still need to work on my weight loss.  So that I keep myself accountable, I am announcing to the world that I am committed to an exercise routine and cutting down on my food intake.  I also need to work on getting my baby to sleep through the night so that I can get enough proper rest to be my best in all areas of my life…which aint been happenin’ with my little 14 month old. 

So, let me know if you are down to go through this journey with me…what are your commitments?  I have an accountability partner  and  we state our specific commitments for every 30, 60, and 90 days.  Even if we don’t reach every commitment we just re-adjust, acknowledge each other for all that we have accomplished and keep going.  You would be amazed at how it really keeps you on track with your goals and gives you clarity in the direction you want to take in life.

I want to sing…I love to sing…so watch me sing like crazy over the next 90 days.