First Day of the last 30 days

Today was absolutely beautiful outside.  80 degrees in the Valley.  I was singing up a storm at the house and was pretty happy to find out that day light savings was over and we had all gained an extra hour of sleep.  The baby had gotten up alittle later than usualy, which was great, but again, she didn’t sleep that fantastically through the night.  She’s definitely teething, growing all four qudrants of her first molars at the same time.  So after being up with her by myself, the hubby came and relieved me and gave me an extra hour and half to sleep.  I had originally planned to go to church with my Mom, to the church that we grew up in, but that didn’t happen.  We had watched Bishop T.D. Jakes earlier in the morning and had started to watch Joel Osteen, but I had seen that sermon before.

Well, I ended up singing like crazy today, belting out “If I Could”, several times, before calling it quits and letting my voice rest.  The baby was so tired that she fell asleep in my arms while while I was singing…that’s crazy…she must have been really tired.  Her sleep time finaly gave me a chance to wash my face and comb my hair.  Wow, the things mommies do…I was looking ragedy for real.  But finally got it together. 

I also had the opportunity to speak with my best friend.  I am so proud of her.  She is on a mission to lose weight and she is doing it.  We were talking about her weight loss cerimony.  She wants to have a “memorial service” for her fat clothes.  Something only “girlfriend’s can relate to”…I love the idea.  Of course I’ll be singing. 

Well, i’m back to blogging like crazy and I really am going to get some videos done.  I saw a girl on YouTube who just video taped herself a capella who totally inspired me.   So, I’ve charged my Flip camera and am I definitely going to tape myself tomorrow, Monday, Novemebr 2nd.  You read it, so I am accountable to you regarding this committment.  Nichole Ayanna, signing out!

Its Halloween and no Tinkle Bell costume tonight!

I was so excited to dress up my little girl for Halloween.  Earlier today I sang at a home going celebration for my friend’s mom.  My friend had come to me at the beginning of the week and asked me to sing “If I Could”, a new song for me, but I wanted to sing that song for her.  So I did that earlier today and had planned to get home, get the baby dressed and take her trick or treating.  Whoooaaaa! She was not haven’ it.  I dressed her in her costume, and needed to pin up the shoulders so it would hang so low.  I tried to pick er up and flapped down like a mermaid out of water.  Every time I tried to pick her up she did the same thing.  Then she ran to ther room crying, and grabbed one of her blankets.   She brought her blanket to me and she looked at me like “sleep”.

Ok.  So my hubby and I stayed home with the baby, which is what she really wanted.  I think she thought I was getting her dressed to drop her off with her grandparents.  She just wanted to be with her mommy and daddy.  So, tonight was still wonderful.

Thinking About 100 Million Things

I’ve got a 100 million thought spinning around in my head this evening as I sit here writing.  I woke up early this morning to sweet voice of my babygirl syaing, ‘Up, up”.  She slept well in her crib that is situated in our bedroom.  When she caught a glimpse of my eyes trying to sneak a peak at me, she whispered “hi”.  I just smiled from her just cute deliciousness, got her out of the crib and then put her in the bed with us.  Mistake!  She never fell back to sleep.  Needless to say, I was operating on fumes today without getting enough sleep.  I wont be doing that again tonight.

I had a great lunch today with a good friend of mine who also has a baby.  It’s so good talking to her because sometimes i feel we are living parallel lives in some respect.  We can relate and then she has other perspectives than me.  She is more conservative and I think I take a little more risks.  I think I am a little more creative, but she is highly cerebral and the voice of reason.  Conversations with her help you balance things out and she knows where all the great restaurants are downtown.

Well, I had a wonderful walk today with my accountability partner sista, my “aps”.  It was mostly me texting her while I took the 2 and half mile walk around the reserviore in Silver Lake, while she drove  to meet me from her editing bay in Venice beach (she is an amazing documentory movie editor).  We were suppose to walk together, but when I finished the walk she had just arrived and I needed to get back to pick up Lalah from my Moms.  So, we sat in the grass and had our empowerment session.  We keep eachother in check, making sure we stay on track in living our authentic lives.  We make sure that we inform eachother when we recognize that we are allowing fear to hinder our dreams, so that we can conquer that obstacle that we have created in our minds and get over it.  We acknowledge eacthothers accomplishments.

Its really strange how we met.  We were standing in line at thevalet, waiting for our cars after we both had already attended a day long internetmarketing seminar with another incrediby empowering woman name Vanessa Summers.  I introduced myself and asked how she liked the seminar and what type of business she was involved in, etc.  She was just open and friendly.  We talked about my mastermind group and accountability partners and what a great idea that would be.  We exchanged information, and then about 3 weeks later got started as eachothers APS’s.  It has been awesome ever since.  We are flexible with eachother if certain things are not accomplished or are altered a bit after we get more clarity in our lives direction.  It’s great!

Tonight, the baby went to sleep already…She tried to play my guitar tonight while I sang.  She can strum pretty well with her tiny fingers.  She loves music and looks up everytime she hears a guitar or a piano played on the TV. Play a song and her little head just bobbs up and down, she claps…I just love it.  Just wanted to share some of my100 million things today.

Too Blessed To Be Stressed!

Sometimes you just have to reflect on the wonderful people that surround you and fill your life with purpose and meaning.  They give you inspiration, advice, and words of wisdom to empower you.  Some can just tell it like it is, and they don’t sugar coat a thing so that you know “the truth” about thangs.  I just have to say thank God for my circle of family, friends and fans.  It’s really a blessing to know when people are “your” people.  They don’t spend time draining you with negativity.  Instead, they uplift you and you do the same for them, whether it’s demonstrated through a thoughtful gesture, word, song, or just a knowing that “they have your back.”

You may have read over the past few days that I have been exhausted trying to do all the things that I want to do in my life, be a good mommy and wife, work well, and sing like the performer I was born to be.  I had hit a wall because my baby had not been sleeping through the night.  I reached out to family and friends who gave me advice as to what to do.  Well, I’ve gotta say that last night I used a combination of techniques to get Ms. Thang to sleep.  Whatever I did worked, and my hubby and I finally got a good nights sleep, which had been lacking almost ever since she was born.  Man, I feel like a new person.  Sleep deprivation can really reek havoc on your overall wellbeing and your social life.  I’m going to work the same technique this evening too.  Wish me luck.

I actually had time to do my hair this morning as well a put on a little make-up…little pleasures you take for granted before having kids.

Do you have “your peeps” that have your back?

I’m Not Your Superwoman…

Sometimes I just put too much on my plate.  I do time blocking which I talked about in a previous blog post as well as the email newsletter that I sent out today.  I do it so that I can schedule in all kinds of things into my life, including spending time with my family, building my career, time to reflect and meditate, as well as take care of my health.  But, sometimes the way I schedule everything is out of balance and a little too ambitious.  I scheduled to do so much today but exhaustion and sleep deprivation struck and I just couldn’t do a dang thang…I hit the wall.  Have you ever been so tired that you couldn’t fall asleep?  That was me today.   So, I’m gonna cut this short and get back to ya tomorrow.