What Are You Afraid Of…Uhhh?
Most people are crippled by negative possibilitites. They question themselves with “What if’s”, which prevent them from doing things in their lives that they would truly enjoy, or that they dream of doing. I have got to admit that I used to be one of those people. I don’t know why but for years after I stopped singing with my sisters in the music group Nik-Tash’tA, I had developed this terrible stage fright. I think it stemmed from doing a couple of just really bad shows. We had been exhausted. I was in school full time, and so were my sisters. We hadn’t really practiced that well. I think that also, with one of the performances, I had totally syked myself out because it was one of those “comedy and R&B” shows. So I created this FEAR inside me of what if’s”. What if I totally choke and then the comedians make fun of us all night? Man it was a self fulfilling prophecy. Our rehearsal before the show was great but during the show my throat felt like I had eaten a box of salteens. It was totally not me and absolutely aweful. I heard a guy in the audience who was at the rehearsal say…”what in the world happened…they were great in the rehearsal.”
So years afterwards, I have had to face my fears to really live the life that I truly want to live. I am a singer down deep in my soul.
I began to think about this topic last week, but really got deep into this conversation of “fear” running your life, with my best friend. She was dealing with the same issue, and was finally recognizing it for what it was and what many people have learned that fear stands for…False Evidence Appearing Real. You have to face some of your fears head on, and to do so, you have to see the positive possibilies insted of the negative what if’s. I’ve learned that time is going pass with or without me doing things that I really love so I might as well do them, while still be reasonable and ethical. I’m not saying do something that will harm or injure yourself or someone else, but to move you to action with things in your life that will make your dreams come true or move you to happiness. What are some of these things for you?
