I finally recorded a couple of videos of personal live performances of You Grant Wish, a capella, and my rendition of ‘If I Could” with some accompaniment music.  My hubby figured out how to get “If I Could” up on YouTube, but I haven’t had a chance to figure out how to input it into my website.  Babysteps…I’ve gotta keep telling myself that i just need to take babysteps when I do things.  I have no nanny, so its just me, so things takes a little longer to get done, so that I can still spend quality time with the family.

I am so excited because the hubby expressed his interest in producing some music for me.  He is excellent at making beats.  So stayed tuned for where this all leads.  We are looking into the cost of putting together a home based studio, and also planning to take some classes on studio engineering and producing, etc… You know I am excited about the possibility of being able to complete a song without waiting to try to get some studio time.  I also can’t wait to see what my baby girl does when she is surrounded by music as she grows up.

Well, I ended up singing like crazy today, belting out “If I Could”, several times, before calling it quits and letting my voice rest.  The baby was so tired that she fell asleep in my arms while while I was singing…that’s crazy…she must have been really tired.  Her sleep time finaly gave me a chance to wash my face and comb my hair.  Wow, the things mommies do…I was looking ragedy for real.  But finally got it together. 

I also had the opportunity to speak with my best friend.  I am so proud of her.  She is on a mission to lose weight and she is doing it.  We were talking about her weight loss cerimony.  She wants to have a “memorial service” for her fat clothes.  Something only “girlfriend’s can relate to”…I love the idea.  Of course I’ll be singing. 

Well, i’m back to blogging like crazy and I really am going to get some videos done.  I saw a girl on YouTube who just video taped herself a capella who totally inspired me.   So, I’ve charged my Flip camera and am I definitely going to tape myself tomorrow, Monday, Novemebr 2nd.  You read it, so I am accountable to you regarding this committment.  Nichole Ayanna, signing out!

Ok.  So my hubby and I stayed home with the baby, which is what she really wanted.  I think she thought I was getting her dressed to drop her off with her grandparents.  She just wanted to be with her mommy and daddy.  So, tonight was still wonderful.

I haven’t been video taping myself singing, so that has to be something that I push through to do asap.  It’s ridiculous.  I haven’t been setting aside the time to showcase myself to my own “peeps”.  I know you all support me and lift me up…I think the fear of being seen all over the world wide web performing, which is my dream, is getting in the way.   Also questioning the “what if’s”…what if I sing the wrong somg, What if people start talking about me?”…etc.   I’ve gotta listen to my own advise about FEAR, “False Evidence Appearing Real”.  You may have read the blog I had saying “Don’t Be Sciirred”, talking about conquering your fears by facing them head-on.

I have also gotta get my online store up and going.  Everyone is asking what things they will be seeing in the store other than music…well, your gonna have to wait on that.  I am still making up my mind on what I would like to offer that really imparts some value into your quality of life.  The next 30 days is going to be more awesome than the first.   I’ll also track my workout regimen better…I think I’m down about 5 pounds.  Now it’s time to step up my exercise routine, not that baby girl is finally sleeping through the night.  Why don’t you join me now in doing the Challenge and making the end of 2009 the best time in your life.

That’s what I am doing, putting a new “shot” of life into the 90 Day Challenge.  It’s only been three weeks into the 90 days, but as a Gemini, who can get distracted very easily, its good that I am committing to this 7 Day Shot Challenge.  I don’t know, but I was thinking about people who get those B12 shots to get more energy throughout the day.  I’m not trying to get a B12 shot, although that does sound…interesting, I am just putting new energy into my 90 day Challenge.  Are you ready to join in now?  Let me know what you are planning to do over the next 7 days.

Also, I have a great newsletter coming out this week so make sure you sign up to receive it by entering your name and email address in the box to right where it says to join my email list.  Peace, Songs, and Blessing…Nichole Ayanna is out.

You may have read over the past few days that I have been exhausted trying to do all the things that I want to do in my life, be a good mommy and wife, work well, and sing like the performer I was born to be.  I had hit a wall because my baby had not been sleeping through the night.  I reached out to family and friends who gave me advice as to what to do.  Well, I’ve gotta say that last night I used a combination of techniques to get Ms. Thang to sleep.  Whatever I did worked, and my hubby and I finally got a good nights sleep, which had been lacking almost ever since she was born.  Man, I feel like a new person.  Sleep deprivation can really reek havoc on your overall wellbeing and your social life.  I’m going to work the same technique this evening too.  Wish me luck.

I actually had time to do my hair this morning as well a put on a little make-up…little pleasures you take for granted before having kids.

Do you have “your peeps” that have your back?

You know sometimes you have to just laugh when a wrench gets thrown into your plans.  Hey, I believe there are always reasons for delays and that everythings somes at its own time.  This can be kinda of a mystical cliche’ but “the universe has to align itself”.  God always has a plan, and i am just playing my part.

I sent out my first email newsletter today.  It was like a weight was lifted.  I think I made it out to be something much bigger then it actually was…I have to stay on top of it to make sure I send out and stay consistent with my emailings and I make sure that my friends and fans can get the latest updates on new music releases, videos, and even some great lifestyle iformation that I like to share.  Don’t forget to sign up to receive my new email newsletter.  There is a form on the home page where you just have enter your email address and you name to get on my list.  It’s that simple…ok…hope to see you on my email list!

I want to get out at least one email newsletter a week, so that my friends,family and fans (which can all be one person:)) can be kept up to date on the new things that are going on in my life as well as when they can see a new performance or get my latest release.  I need to hire a babysitter just to assist me a couple of days a week so that I can practically have another set of eyes and hands watching the baby.  I can set aside some time to practice more, get some performance footage, get my email newsletter out and get some much needed couple time with my hubby.  I want to maintain a good work out regimen.  I have been running  a few miles at a time with 4-5 mile runs on Saturday mornings at the beach…BUT haven’t been for the past couple of weeks.  I’ve gotta get back on it because I need to lose the last bit of baby weight that I gained when I was pregnant.  I want to step my workouts up a notch and probably go to the gym a couple of times a week during lunch. I want to find and buy a house, too.  Ok…weremy goals a little too ambitious; 1 email newsletter a week, hiring a babysitter, practicing and tapig performances, date nights with hubby, regular workouts and, buying a house.    I think it is all doable, especially if I follow my own advise I’ve written about in previous blogs about scheduling mytime as a Singer/Mommy/Wife /Motivator. 

I’ll keep you all updated as to where I am and what has been accomplished.  Let me know what your goals are and we can keep eachother accountable.  Good luck.  Peace and soul grease, Nichole Ayanna